Tuesday, December 21, 2010

December 2010 Full Moon

There are some of you looking shocked that I'm here. Besides that, I just want to tell you something very disturbing. I went to see my doctor yesterday and while I was sitting in the waiting room, I could hear this telephone conversation that was very disturbing. All the people that called were Indians begging the doctor to admit their mother or father into hospital for the next two weeks. This is something that is pathetic. They want to entertain themsmselves for the next few weeks that's why they wanted to admit their parents. I could not believe that anyone could do that to their parents. You really have to be insane – something in your brain is not right. You don't have brain matter. You have worms.

And then, after that, I was requested to buy some stuff so I went into Gateway. But I normally go to the entrance where Game is so that parking is quick. But I could not get into Game. What was fascinating was the fashion. The fashion was fascinating. How can mothers and daughters dress alike, and wear these funny outfits? How can they can walk next to each other and everyone mistake them for sisters? So I'm driving back and thinking maybe I should start this thing called 'spiritual fashion'. I know some of you will follow. On a hot summer day, boiling, thirty degrees you wear boots and you're suffering – in a short skirt. And when you remove your shoes at the end of the day everyone around must run for cover - and we call it fashion.

It's strange that the very people that I see come here to the temple. Why you can't dress the way you are here? I still can't understand. People smile when they see me walking with my dhoti raised and I'm comfortable like that. I raise my dhoti and I feel comfortable and walk freely but you laugh and nudge the person next to you but, really, it doesn't bother me. But, as I said, what I saw today was not fashion. It was a disgrace. If you want to go like that, disaster is not far. You must be thinking, 'what does fashion have to do with disaster?' It has to do with rape - and that is a disaster. Today's headlines were, 'Rape Victim Saved by SMS'. Think about it. Our rape in this country is so high, third only to New York and Boston.

So, anyway, when I walked in here tonight I got a shock. Where were all of you during the last few months? In twelve months we've never filled this place like this. This is called 'Christmas Darshan'; 'end-of-year Christmas Darshan'. You just missed it. Today's the 21st so you can have a party on the 25th. Had this been the 24th, there would be only half of you here because we would disturb your braai tomorrow. But, really, this is what should be happening every month. You should come here and get this darshan. If you missed the darshan of Saturday, you missed the biggest darshan the Gayathri Peedam has ever given. If you missed it on Saturday, you missed a big one. Some of you were here from 2am until 3pm – nearly burned the building down, but it doesn't matter – they were here.

I don't know how much more to emphasise that we need to make this connection with God. For twelve months I've been saying it. This is the last month I'm saying this. You won't see me in pournami or service for the next six months. I'll only be here in January and March as a special request, but at other pournamis you won't see me, 'till you can connect with God. I have failed miserably to connect you with God. I've tried and tried and tried, and the more I try the worm is getting bigger, out of control. I'd like to tell you something. When you come here, if all of you can be like Suren – there are others - but Suren is a perfect example – you'd be connected. But we want to get involved in unnecessary issues. You must come here for one person, for the grace of God – forget the grace of Guru. Enjoy that grace of God, feel that grace of God. I have somebody who's really felt energies here. They have been associated with Sathya Sai Baba for many years and they felt this energy here. What happens to you all? Tell me. It's because your focal point of concentration is not there and that should be God. God should be your point of concentration, but we miss the boat. For some of you this Gayathri Mata is called once-a-month Gayathri Mata. I won't see you then. The next time I see you all will be the 19th of January. Nobody comes during the week or for service – only Jane can't cook prasad for all of you, she'll burn it but it doesn't matter. Burnt is better than no prasad. We're going to conclude now.

Wishing you a merry Christmas and prosperous New Year. I will see you on the 18th of January. I'll be in India and Sri Lanka with some devotees. I'll pray for you that you'll connect with God. I've stopped praying for your good health. I'm just praying for you to connect with God.

This is the Peedam diary for 2011. If you want one give your names to Lalitha and she'll make arrangements for you to have one.

On 31st December at 10am, we start reciting the Gayathri Mantra into the new year. Speak to Tejananda and he'll make sure you can be in that prayer – he'll tell you how much it will cost for you to be there.

This Friday evening after service there will be a one-hour Christmas meditation.

Then on the 18th of January I need twenty names who are willing to carry Thaipusam Kavady. But you must have transport. It's not here. Kavady starts at four. It's a Thursday, at a temple where Tejananda is the chairman and we want to support him. If you give him your twenty names we'll be very very excited for you.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Dedication and Purpose

Dedication. If you not going to have it, you are not going to make it. What does it mean that we will 'not make it'? Everything should be regarded as service for God. If teachers go to school and just do their jobs, then they are just doing their work. But if they do it for God then they have dedication and love for our work. How are you going to be a dedicated person?

Here is a point on dedication: I know this devotee whose every word was 'Swami Murugesu'. Then, after Swami's Mahasamadhi, every word from her lips was 'Swami Shankarananda.'. She then went to Australia and ended up married to a Christian. She sent me an email with reference to a Bible verse from Matthew, which states that if you mention God's name in vain then you are a heathen.

The strange thing is when a Christian is in a pickle, he is quick to make Jesus and God personal – and they call out, 'Oh my God, Oh Jesus'. Only then is God very personal.

But with us God is very personal, you can hold the Shiva – you can see the Shiva. When people give up this sanatan dharma, this beautiful religion, then they attack the very religion they came from. This devotee was so dedicated, that she wrote 1 469000 times, likit japa 'Om Kriya Babaji Nama Aum'. So what happened to her dedication? This is what I ask myself:. The Gita clearly states that even wise men make mistakes. Those like us who follow are the wise. We are the wise men. She used Babaji to get her bait. She will soon receive that which is to come from using Babaji to get her way. This will come back faster than a boomerang.

We lose our reason when we come here - for being here and coming here. Then we get lost. Then we get caught up in the jealousy and questioning of people's relationships with Gurudev. When you get here you have a purpose. Now you have lost that purpose – there is this worm that is eating away at everyone and it is the worm of jealousy. When I see you at the beach I am your friend, but not at any time will I be your Guru and you the disciple. What I can do is my masters work in my room.

Our teenagers are telling lies – you see something and they lie to your face. People love and respect Gurudev in Stanger and there is no jealousy and anger between them there, not like others as here in Verulam. From now on, Babaji and Yogiar will guide you from the picture above the chair of Gurudev. You were taking up my time, now I can do my work. When you make the Guru's business your business then you will definitely lose your purpose. Paramahansa Yogananda met Babaji at the Mela. Babaji said, 'you are wasting your time here, go to the west'.

We had a devotee here by the name of Krish, who would sit there where Andre is sitting, and sing Muruga songs. Best you move or you may leave as well. He was in India with me where he said he has now met his master and no one can get in his way. No one can move him. His master is now Swami Shankarananda. He spent twenty years with his past master, where he went and spent some time in Australia and got initiated. After death His master then sent energy to him, and his master sent him to me, Swami Shankarananda. Then Swami Amitananda came here and gave a discourse. When Swami Amitananda came, Krish left the ashram. He dropped the electronic drum off at the ashram, said he had a sick mother and would not be coming for awhile. He told lies while within the Mother's energy. He then spent time with Amitananda. What happened to the instruction from his master that he was guided to me? He came here to become a Swami, but it did not happen for him so he left. That's what he wanted. We do not understand what it means to be a swami.

People here have lost their purpose. They get caught up in the spider's web and now spin their own webs. They became orphans. Work to get the dedication, to get that love for God. When I go to Sri Lanka on the twenty-seventh, they are already getting ready for Gurudev.

Go and work for it and get enlightened. I only came down to service tonight for two reasons: Mahavishnu asked as it would be his last service before going back to varsity. When Gurudev gets back he would have left for varsity. And some visitors came from Kimberly, so whilst sitting in my room, I thought it rude not to come and be there for them.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


Whatever we do in life, if we have no interest then it's wasted. I saw you just throwing the samaghri in the fire and not reciting. This is the last Triambagam. If all of you could put in the same energy ... but there is so much disinterest.

The time has come to make a decision. I've given you twenty-four months. I give you this time for Triambagam but you are disinterested. If only you know how much benefit you can get from Triambagam, but you're all looking up at the rain. For your information the Gayathri Peedam has divine sequences in pooja. One of these is rain. It drizzles before the start of a pooja and rains afterwards. It took six hours of preparation today and there's such disinterest. The kids carried all those blocks and built the hawankund and I made them do it again until it was perfect for God. If you show no interest in God, He's not going to be interested in you.

As I was walking round watching everyone tonight, I realised the time has come to stop Triambagam. This is the thirteenth Triambagam, a good time to stop. If you want to continue with it next year, ask Tejananda Acharya. Its easy for you to throw samagri with no interest. The time has come for us to make this connection with God. There's no other time. You don't find the time in your normal day to connect with God so we make time for you the ashram, but you fail. When you come, don't come for the grace of God and Guru, Just come for God. Your guru is the biggest idiot because he started all of this. We don't put in the devotion and love, but we want God. Some people aren't here but when their child is sick, then they only come. I'm just disappointed. Some of the men just walk around and don't even help the ladies. Everyone must work together. So, no more Triambagam. One person who will miss it is Dean. He came and told me that it was a powerful prayer. But do we all give this prayer the same importance? You expect to just throw and Guru will do the rest. My appearance will be non-existent as of now. I can't carry on doing this. Everytime it's the same discussion. I'm not going to be the loser. It's just energy-sapping and I don't want to do it any more. Make your commitment to God – but that you can't do. There's a time in life that everything must come to an end and that time has come for me. Many times I think of the same issues. The masters are not applauding. They are saying 'told you so'.

Tejananda pushes me to do the prayers but people come here for other reasons. I want all your children to know one thing: I'm not blind and I know exactly what is happening and that has to stop today. Tonight was the cherry on top. I'll pray for you in my own time and space. When I do something I look for those who need it most and let them do the pooja, but they are going to lose out because of some of you. So connect with God and carry on from there.

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Your guru has a thing called ‘feeling’ and his greatest desire for all of you is to connect with God. He doesn’t desire your money, your house or your car, but that each one of you should connect with God and every time, he tries to take you to God … connect with God. That’s what your guru is telling you.

I’ve been warning you all that you’re going to lose a pearl. You’ve just lost a pearl. This is it. The only thing that is going to bring your guru back is your commitment. You cannot continue hurting your guru and thinking you can get away with it. It’s not going to work like that. Your guru gave you his life. He didn’t ask you anything, just to connect with God. To some of you this is a big headache - that you have to come here to make this offering.

It’s unfortunate that it has to come to this, but your sincerity will be determined in the next few months. There are some of you lovely people here. Your guru loves you dearly. Others, your guru loves you divinely. What have you done? You have not made that connection. Your guru is dying in front of you, moment by moment, and you don’t even take that opportunity to connect with God. Think about it. What you’ve lost is very divine - if I have to say it. The other rishis will say the same thing

Sad for you all. We are happy about this that your guru doesn’t have any more stress. Your days of guru and God are over. Your days of God only are left. Your guru knew yesterday that he won’t be here for your pournami. He felt the energy that he’s not going to be here for your pournami. He felt it yesterday. You set the energy

You know, there’s a temple in a place called Rambodha. It’s a Hanuman temple in Sri Lanka. Many times I connected with God there. You know why? ‘Cause I had this innate desire to connect with God.

[Swami asks Jagadambal to bring the Augusthiar statue.]

What can I say? I can’t say anything. Conclusion is conclusion. Stop is stop - can’t go another step. The only thing I’ll tell you here and now is that I love you all dearly and you are the most beautiful people I’ve met. Can you imagine how much more beautiful you’d be if you made that connection with God. I’m trying to tell you that, you know. You need to come right first, all of you. Connect with God, what else can I emphasize? Connect with God - that’s what I’m telling you. But you won’t connect with God, so there’s no point. If you don’t want to connect to God, there’s no point in praying. So you may all eat now.

[Swami places a plate of food in front of the Agasthiar murthi. Everyone eats. Swami asks for all left over food to be mixed into one pot - dahl, potato, rice and herbs. Swami then dishes out the mixed food and serves to everyone personally.]

So you are just fortunate that you had astral Prasad. There’s still some in the bowl there. I’m sure you’re tired, after work, no? If you want to leave, it’s no problem. This might be the biggest event in your life, this Prasad. If you have any questions you can ask. We can make some discussion.

Devotee: Can swami please describe doubt.
Swami: You can only have doubt if you have an experience of the same thing, an impression of the same thing, or a perception of the same thing. If you’ve never seen a car moving and somebody tells you about a car moving, then you’ll not have doubt. But if you saw the car was stationery and somebody told you it was moving, then you’ll have doubt. On the spiritual journey doubt is set by the mind. It’s one of the things about the mind that can stop your journey. It’s one of the modifications of the mind. Doubt. And once you set doubt, you’ve set yourself into a problem because you will find it very difficult to find room for reason. Doubt will set you in a corner where there is no reason.

One of the worst things you can do is doubt anything that your elders, spiritual masters, gurus, whatever you call them – anything they say you should not doubt as they’ve been through a series of experiences and know what they’re talking about. Once you have doubt, you have an obstacle and, because of that doubt, you’ll keep going back to the one statement that created the doubt. It’s like carrying something in your mind, and when you carry something in your mind, nothing else can fill that space. For example, all of you today, especially those that are fasting saltless for Saturday’s prayer, the whole day you’re thinking about salt. That is the truth. So nothing else could go in the mind but that thought. Doubt works like that. Once it occupies the mind it leaves no room for anything else.

So that is doubt, and it is basically something that comes from being judgemental. And being judgemental is very significant in doubt. Once you create doubt, your journey will not go as smoothly as you want it to go. It is like eating an orange. If you think that peeling the orange is quite an effort, you’ll never eat that orange – unless someone else does it for you. But your mind is occupied with the process of taking a long time. Doubt works like that. It occupies the complete mass of your brain where nothing else matters. But it’s definitely not right … and you miss it. You’ll say, ‘He’s definitely not God-loving,' and when a God-loving person comes along you miss the point. Do not doubt; always reason. Reasoning is better than doubting. If somebody tells you that one and one is three, you’ll doubt that because you have reasoning to tell you that one and one is equal to two. Doubt can cause you to lose everything you have in life on the spiritual journey.

Devotee: Swami, when one experiences a modification of the mind, is it best to push it away, or leave it and wait for it to pass?
Swami: The only reason you have a modification of the mind is because you have an impression and therefore you need the modification. You don’t know that sugar is sweet until you taste it. And when you’ve tasted it, you know it’s sweet even if you don’t taste it again. So, if you clear your mind, you won’t have these modifications of the mind. Pushing them away is no good. They’ll come back. Work them out.

Devotee: Why is it so difficult for us to let go?
Swami: Actually, change is always difficult - any kind of change. Wanting to give up meat is a change. Something has to be found to replace the meat. So we find soya. Soya reminds you of meat because your mind is saying, ‘I can have that because it tastes the same’. So you have it to bluff the mind. But you have not become a vegetarian in the mind, only on the outside. In the mind you are still eating meat. Otherwise, why do you buy chicken-flavoured soya? Why don’t you buy soya beans instead? Because they have no meat flavour. We bluff the mind continuously. It’s sitting quietly, saying, ‘Right, I’ve had my quota of meat for today’. Those soya nuggets taste just like chicken so the mind is satisfied. Very few people like soya beans. They tell you the taste is terrible – no flavour. Modification of the mind is an important aspect of this journey. Patanjali mentions this in the yoga sutra. That is what we lack. As soon as we can modify the mind we can connect with God. But we have not modified the mind yet. We’ve still got these impressions, these perceptions, and as long as we do, in the mind’s eye, we’re not going to change.

It’s eleven o’clock so those who want to leave, feel comfortable to leave. Don’t think I’ll shout at you. Those who remain will remain here till six in the morning.

Devotee: Swami, can Triambagam heal nature?
Swami: It can heal anything! It can even charge a flat battery, said with the right intensity, yet tonight there was no intensity, just a boring process.

Devotee: Does healing energy every vanish?
Swami: Yes it does. All the energy goes to the solar plexus. The energy is stored there as such, and as it dissipates. Chakras, subtle body thus refer chakra back for ease of healing work. Falling asleep in a prayer breaks the continuity of the energy field. Some people sleep, sleep, sleep, and they enjoy the world. Some run, run, run, and experience the world. Others just sit, sit, sit, and experience the world. They are called yogis. It is weird how he who just sits can experience the whole universe. Yogi is just a four-letter word for someone who sees all. Simplicity is spirituality, and spirituality is simplicity.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Year-end message

(A page with the following message was handed out by Swami to everyone present.)

All the happenings and experiences of the year 2010 will soon be memories. Some will bring a smile, some laughter, and others tears and anger. Whatever it is it should remain in 2010. Do not get caught in these, especially if you pursue a spiritual journey. Leave the sadness of 2010 behind; leave the disappointments of 2010 behind. Just look forward. Just look forward to many opportunities and joys in the near and distant future, to learn, to grow to emotional and spiritual maturity, but beyond all this to awaken to Self Realization, and inspire and guide others to the highest good.

For yourself during the next few weeks until 1 January 2011, meditate until your mind is calm and your awareness is clear. Set goals of what you need to accomplish and the experience in 2011 and in the future. Set out plans and routines of how you are going to attain this.

Meditate to attract these circumstances and experiences. During all this time keep a focus on maintaining a positive use of the senses. This will make you receptive to the plans set out.

Know this: when in prayer daily, I pray with you. I pray that you are in oneness with God, so that you are spiritually awake, happy, healthy, prosperous and freely expressive.

As you can see, this message is about the few days we have left before we enter 2011. The message says we will have many memories of disappointments, sorrows, joys and bliss. It says, leave that behind and look forward to more bliss. At the bottom it says, ‘know this: when in prayer daily, I pray with you that you are in oneness with God, so that you are spiritually awake, happy, healthy, prosperous and freely expressive’. And daily I pray for each one of you hoping that somehow you become what is written there, what is noted there: spiritually awake. I think that is the most important aspect of this journey.

Everyone has a goal on this spiritual journey. Some people want to be transcendentally elevated, others want to find God Each one has a goal. And in 2011, let us start to realise these goals. We are saying over and over, ‘I want God, to feel God’. What is the self? We can only ask these kinds of questions, but if we don’t make the choice to more forward towards these questions, we’re not going to go anywhere.

Many have already decided to have a bad 2011. Let 2010 be buried in the cemetery of the past. Carry it not in a bin-bag as baggage and, if you can do that, your oneness with God, your spiritual awakening, won’t be a task - it will be like spreading butter on bread, as smooth as that. And always remember that when you spread butter on bread you have on one side a thick layer, and on the other side a very thin layer. What we are looking for is that thin layer. The thick layer is the physical body. What we are looking for is that One that diminishes with that tip of a needle. And once you find that Self, 2011 will be for you joyous, divine and spiritually enlightening, and you’ll be elevated continually. I’m going to try my best to give you the best in the next twenty-four months. Those who are here will attain, will achieve, be happy and joyous. Those who miss it will really miss it. Many things happen here. When you leave then it all happens. For those that have left, you have missed out. So, that is the importance of trying to be in this enclosure for as long as you can. You’ll enjoy every moment. You’ll enjoy this unique oneness with God. You’ll enjoy this beatitude of the Self … you’ll enjoy. And once you enjoy that, you’ll really need nothing else in this life. Everything else in this life, the end of it brings you misery. But by this, (devotion) you’ll be spiritually awake, and the end of it will bring you only joy, joy, joy. That is all you need.
Hari om.

Devotee: What kind of healing was Guru doing just now?
Swami: It was Hong Shong. It’s a reiki technique that masters don’t teach because it will be misused. If I have to charge I’ll have to charge, like 150 dollars, and it works instantly. But we never teach, it so don’t even think of asking me. If you know the Gayathri mantra, you’ll know the technique. Breathe in, hold your breath, breathe out, hold your breath, four breaths. Place your hand on the person’s head and do that four times. On the fifth time, raise your hands above the head, there should be an energy between the head and the hands. If there’s no energy you’re doing something wrong. That energy removes the headache. We don’t teach it because of misuse. By misuse people will charge money for it. All the masters in India teach everything they know and never get anything back for it. Some swami charges 510 000 dollars in India, just to teach you about death, a seven day workshop. Only when we are a hundred percent sure, we’ll release the knowledge. That’s why we like to teach children because we can teach them properly. Adults already have some other perception in their heads. When Yogiar was here he asked everyone to write what they are going to do with the yoga. One lady said she would teach the yoga and charge money. He told her to get out. He had charged everyone only R5.

Devotee: If masters charge an excessive fee, are there any karmic consequences?
Swami: Yes, lots of consequences. They charge cash and don’t pay their dues to the government. Karmically, it comes back. Many of you are telling me that I shouldn’t be paying SARS any money, but I still fill in my forms and pay. It’s my due. I drive on the same roads. I have all the facilities everybody else has. Why shouldn’t I be paying taxes? If you’re a politician, your karma won’t be finished in a hundred lifetimes because you’re always bluffing people, and every time you bluff somebody who thinks you’re going to do something you don’t intend to, the karma adds up. If you voted someone into government, and that person rapes somebody, it’s karmic for you too. It’s like when you steal something and sell it to a third person - the end-user. Karma works like that. You know, we were talking about the butchery. The karma is in the user because they create a market, a demand. Don’t think, ‘the butcher killed the sheep, I can eat here’. He killed the sheep for you. If all of you became vegetarian there would be no butchery, and no slaughterhouse. That is the big cycle of karma. We need to be guarded so as not to get caught in the cycle.

Devotee: What is the yantra that was being energised earlier when we were dancing? Does it lift the energy of the room, or heal?
Swami: That is a Sri Chakra meru. A meru is, basically, three-dimensional, not a flat surface – it’s a Sri Chakra pulled from the centre up. The Sri Chakra has the greatest energy in this material universe, and if you do what Sundrie and Nirvana did you’ll also fall down. What happens is that you become one with the meru’s energy, and the energy of the meru is dynamic. If you put the shivalingam there instead, you’ll merge with the lingam’s energy. The energy will be so much you’ll fall onto it. The body is too small for that vast energy. No matter how big the body is, the energy is too much. Size doesn‘t matter when cosmic energy takes you over. It just explodes within you and you fall. If somebody else came to dance and they were open, broadminded, they would also have fallen.

Devotee: Is there a way to expand the body so it can hold more of that energy?
Swami: You can’t expand your body, but you can know the Self which has the ability to contain all the energy. The Self has the ability - the body doesn’t, so you need to start to know the Self and absorb the energy to the Self more than to the physical body. And you must be able to see a body. Last week Sunday I had my body in five places here and I was seeing it in those places. That is what you must be able to do with your body. Then you become free. But we only want to get involved with this gross body, this matter, this mass. And as long as we are doing that we’re going nowhere.

On Wednesday I had a massive angina attack. I couldn’t breathe, was coughing, had hiccoughs. I was scared and I told Tarryn that I was having a heart-attack. I was really scared - not to die, but that I wasn’t near home. If I die I want to die with my masters around me, in this kind of environment - in my kripa. But I took my pump and everything, and was ok. I still went to Stanger but it was bugging me the whole time. Because I enjoy watching Yamaraj (the lord of death), I sat up until two o’clock thinking he’s coming. I enjoy him because he’s one of those few divine energies that people are terrified of, and yet he’s full of jokes. He plays a lot of jokes with you when he comes. He’s not as bad as people make him out to be.

Devotee: Gurudev, you said earlier that when we know the soul we can utilise that energy from the meru to direct it to the soul. How?
Swami: You can contain it using the soul, then you won’t fall. Chaitanya Mahaprabu did that across the whole of India, just singing ‘Hare Krishna’. So we all, some time, must want to become Chaitanyas, not Mahaprabus - that’s the greatest title, greater than mahatma even. ‘Mahatma’ means ‘great soul’, but higher than that is mahaprabu. His title is mahaprabu. If you go to the Hare Krishna organisation they call everybody ‘prabhu’ - it means ‘soul’.

See, our problem is, if I told all of you all seated here, no exceptions, to come here (to the ashram), get dropped off here. Send your cars back, right now and, for the next twelve months just follow me – and whatever I ask you to do, you do with me. If I’m walking around the world, you walk with me. But you’ll worry about your mother-in-law smashing your car, or your wife using your credit card. All those thoughts will stop you. The mind works like that. After forty-four years, I can safely say that I’m ready to walk - but it took forty-four years. From the age of fourteen I’ve been battling with this stupid life. It’s the greatest battle. All great people come and say that the highest birth is the human birth. I say that the greatest curse is the human birth because the want doesn’t stop. We don’t know what enough is. There’s never enough in the bank account. If you’re poor you’re striving, if you’re rich you’re striving. Retirement means you’re closing your eyes and going to bed. When you die, you expire – your last breath leaves you. So we can’t do that, we’re not ready. In twenty-four months time I don’t know if you’ll be ready. I told you just three weeks ago, until now I’ve had not one person approach me and ask, ‘Where do we start? What do we do?’ We start at the beginning. But what is the beginning? We don’t know the beginning. If we knew, we wouldn’t be here. That’s why we’re here but we can’t keep saying ‘where?’ We’re trying to see the beginning with our physical eyes and it’s not going to work.

You know, we all have instinct, somewhere in our system, and we also have spiritual instinct from childhood. Many of you say you don’t know how to get there, ‘We don’t know the way, hold our hand’. Let’s take a child for example. A child is born. The mother places the mouth of the child on her breast. Does the mother have to show the child how to drink, or does it come naturally? It comes naturally. Spirituality is like that. It’s a very natural process learned from your last lives and it will be there in your next life, and the next one. It will only not be there when you stop it - when you realise that this is where you want to go, and this is how you’re going to get there.

Don’t set goals you can’t attain. Set realistic goals. Have two sets of goals, long-term and short-term. In 2011 you may want to learn the important verses of the Bhagavad Gita. That is attainable. Once you start to mentally recite the Bhavagad Gita, and to energise yourself in that manner, then your long term goal is possible because the Bhagavad Gita is only a manual for mankind on how to live in this state of dharma. So if you can learn how to live in this state of dharma, then your long-term goal is nothing; you can even bring it forward. But for many of you seated here, your long-term goal is death because only upon death will your kundalini move. You’ll kick three times then gone, finished! Those three times you’re kicking, you’re sending the kundalini up your spine. You’re not going to say, ‘wife, son, baby, lovey, darling’ – you’ll be in a state of fear that you’re going to leave all that. Your soul exits your body according to your attainment, through your third eye or your crown chakra. Some people think the soul exits through the birthmark. What if you have a birthmark on your bum, does your soul exit through your bum? Then, if we believe the birthmark is from a wound that killed you in your last life, you must have been running away from the cops and they shot you in the bum. Birth marks are just samskaras from your last life. Some people don’t have birthmarks. Others have one over half their face. Maybe that person was weak in school and the teacher slapped him and he died.

So we must find the soul and start to live in the soul. That is called self-realisation. Realise the soul, and then from there you’ll attain. It’s not difficult. We only make it difficult. It’s so simple, it’s unbelievable. But because it’s so simple and because we live a complicated, advanced life, the simple things seem difficult.

Devotee: Do our past lives catch up with us in this life? If we reach a certain level on our journey in our last life, does it affect us in this life?
Swami: You can miss a complete lifetime and continue your journey in another lifetime. Let’s take a simple example. Let’s take Yogiraj. First of all, before he was born, I knew already. I gave Deeps and Praths a prediction of his life. He’s born to them for a specific reason so. I already know why he’s born, why we gave him such a unique name, what his purpose is. So as he grows the intensity of his spiritual journey is fluctuated by his parents - they can change it. Slowly, they can decrease his eagerness to follow the journey, then he loses out and lives his life. After twenty-five or thirty years, the realisation hits him and he’s looking for a guru all over the world. Eventually he comes back to where he was asked not to go. As much as he has a past life with me, as much as I know the life he has with me, I have to start him from the beginning. So there’s two chances: first is that I might live for his full lifespan and teach him properly. The second chance is that five years into getting to know the guru, the guru leaves him because of his karmic consequences of not following. But the intensity of those five years are the same as a whole lifetime. This is not the first time you and I are in a musical association. Other lifetimes we were doing the same thing: singing His name, and you were playing behind me. Play the flute and see if anything happens to you. Blow it and see what happens to you. Automatically, the soul switches to where the flute is and you’ll want to play the flute only. Understand? That is the intensity. It can mess up your present life as well. That is why I don’t get you involved. I avoid telling you who you were. Last life’s ownership starts in this life. For example, ‘Oh, Guru, since I was your wife in the last life, why am I not your wife in this life?’ Trouble and jealousy starts. It’s the same with Deepak, the same with Suren. Everyone has some association. Right up until now, many of you have not tapped that association yet, and I’m not going to show you how. You need to live your own life. When you tap into that, then I’ll take it further. It is a very difficult and slow process.

Somebody asked, not so long ago why some people come to the ashram so late in life. Everything has a specific reason. If Shobha had not known my guru, Brother Haridas, she would not have known me. Just before he left his physical body, in the astral plane he put her hand on my hand and told me to take over from where he left off. He set the energy for that in the astral plane. Some of you were carpenters in your last life. If I point out who you are, you’ll believe you were carpenters in your last life because you’ll find in this life you’ll be battling. There’s a curse upon carpenters because they made the cross upon which Jesus was nailed. You look around you and see carpenters. They always battle. Can’t change this life – and if you married a carpenter, even worse … so we can’t say that about I.T., about computers. They weren’t sending messages with computers in those days. They used to use pigeons; no telephone.

Devotee: What relationship did our children have with us in our past life?
Swami: It’s not about the relationship you had with them, but what karmic consequences you have with those children. For example, if you have XYZ as karmic consequences, you’ll find a child with X, Y and Z to work through the karma, and most of the time it is somebody you knew in another life. For example, take Dean and Jo – they are extremely close to me. Ashok – close to me. Deepak, Suren, most of the yoga students - very close. We have different relationships but my relationship with Dean is not the same as that with the yoga students. My relationship with Ashok is not the same as with Dean. So if someone comes here with an AK47, shoots us all and we’re all born again, we’ll meet under the same circumstances where we’re sitting like this having a discourse and listening. Deborah and Andre are not here by chance. The soul understands what is happening, the body doesn’t. Andre brought Deborah. Do you think she’s here by chance? Do you think she knows Andre by chance? No. Everything is a sequential event that happens.

You are all like pegs on a huge wall. This peg says ‘Andre’, this one says ‘Deborah’, this one says ‘Tarryn’. This one peg says ‘Guru’, and around Guru there are a lot of pegs. Then one peg is pulled out moved. That is how it works. It’s like the old telephone exchange. You ring, ring, ring, and they ask you, ‘what’s your party line?’ Then they’ll call you back with a special ring so you know it’s for you and you answer the phone and they connect you. If they connect you in the wrong place by accident, you’ll talk to the wrong person. Same with life, you can be the father, mother or child in the wrong family. Therefore you’ll find sometimes that among a violent tribe, you’ll get one person who’s calm, honest doesn’t want to steal, who doesn’t eat meat. Why? That’s a mistake - wrong plug. And that mistake happens.

When my youngest brother was born we moved into a new house in Stanger. The people who moved out moved nearby. When my brother was a little baby, maybe four or five days old, all of a sudden everyone started screaming in the house. It was about ten o’clock. I must have been about nine years old. We all got there and the baby was dead, not breathing. My mother was crying, father was upset and shouting at God. Then all of a sudden my brother was alive again. So, just after he came back to life, we heard screaming in the neighbour’s house. The next morning we see lots of cars there and find out that the man in that house died. We did some homework and found out that he used to sleep exactly where my brother was sleeping. So, mistakes happen.

IMAGE: Yoga students dancing around Sri Chakra Meru