Whatever we do in life, if we have no interest then it's wasted. I saw you just throwing the samaghri in the fire and not reciting. This is the last Triambagam. If all of you could put in the same energy ... but there is so much disinterest.
The time has come to make a decision. I've given you twenty-four months. I give you this time for Triambagam but you are disinterested. If only you know how much benefit you can get from Triambagam, but you're all looking up at the rain. For your information the Gayathri Peedam has divine sequences in pooja. One of these is rain. It drizzles before the start of a pooja and rains afterwards. It took six hours of preparation today and there's such disinterest. The kids carried all those blocks and built the hawankund and I made them do it again until it was perfect for God. If you show no interest in God, He's not going to be interested in you.
As I was walking round watching everyone tonight, I realised the time has come to stop Triambagam. This is the thirteenth Triambagam, a good time to stop. If you want to continue with it next year, ask Tejananda Acharya. Its easy for you to throw samagri with no interest. The time has come for us to make this connection with God. There's no other time. You don't find the time in your normal day to connect with God so we make time for you the ashram, but you fail. When you come, don't come for the grace of God and Guru, Just come for God. Your guru is the biggest idiot because he started all of this. We don't put in the devotion and love, but we want God. Some people aren't here but when their child is sick, then they only come. I'm just disappointed. Some of the men just walk around and don't even help the ladies. Everyone must work together. So, no more Triambagam. One person who will miss it is Dean. He came and told me that it was a powerful prayer. But do we all give this prayer the same importance? You expect to just throw and Guru will do the rest. My appearance will be non-existent as of now. I can't carry on doing this. Everytime it's the same discussion. I'm not going to be the loser. It's just energy-sapping and I don't want to do it any more. Make your commitment to God – but that you can't do. There's a time in life that everything must come to an end and that time has come for me. Many times I think of the same issues. The masters are not applauding. They are saying 'told you so'.
Tejananda pushes me to do the prayers but people come here for other reasons. I want all your children to know one thing: I'm not blind and I know exactly what is happening and that has to stop today. Tonight was the cherry on top. I'll pray for you in my own time and space. When I do something I look for those who need it most and let them do the pooja, but they are going to lose out because of some of you. So connect with God and carry on from there.
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Your guru has a thing called ‘feeling’ and his greatest desire for all of you is to connect with God. He doesn’t desire your money, your house or your car, but that each one of you should connect with God and every time, he tries to take you to God … connect with God. That’s what your guru is telling you.
I’ve been warning you all that you’re going to lose a pearl. You’ve just lost a pearl. This is it. The only thing that is going to bring your guru back is your commitment. You cannot continue hurting your guru and thinking you can get away with it. It’s not going to work like that. Your guru gave you his life. He didn’t ask you anything, just to connect with God. To some of you this is a big headache - that you have to come here to make this offering.
It’s unfortunate that it has to come to this, but your sincerity will be determined in the next few months. There are some of you lovely people here. Your guru loves you dearly. Others, your guru loves you divinely. What have you done? You have not made that connection. Your guru is dying in front of you, moment by moment, and you don’t even take that opportunity to connect with God. Think about it. What you’ve lost is very divine - if I have to say it. The other rishis will say the same thing
Sad for you all. We are happy about this that your guru doesn’t have any more stress. Your days of guru and God are over. Your days of God only are left. Your guru knew yesterday that he won’t be here for your pournami. He felt the energy that he’s not going to be here for your pournami. He felt it yesterday. You set the energy
You know, there’s a temple in a place called Rambodha. It’s a Hanuman temple in Sri Lanka. Many times I connected with God there. You know why? ‘Cause I had this innate desire to connect with God.
[Swami asks Jagadambal to bring the Augusthiar statue.]
What can I say? I can’t say anything. Conclusion is conclusion. Stop is stop - can’t go another step. The only thing I’ll tell you here and now is that I love you all dearly and you are the most beautiful people I’ve met. Can you imagine how much more beautiful you’d be if you made that connection with God. I’m trying to tell you that, you know. You need to come right first, all of you. Connect with God, what else can I emphasize? Connect with God - that’s what I’m telling you. But you won’t connect with God, so there’s no point. If you don’t want to connect to God, there’s no point in praying. So you may all eat now.
[Swami places a plate of food in front of the Agasthiar murthi. Everyone eats. Swami asks for all left over food to be mixed into one pot - dahl, potato, rice and herbs. Swami then dishes out the mixed food and serves to everyone personally.]
So you are just fortunate that you had astral Prasad. There’s still some in the bowl there. I’m sure you’re tired, after work, no? If you want to leave, it’s no problem. This might be the biggest event in your life, this Prasad. If you have any questions you can ask. We can make some discussion.
Devotee: Can swami please describe doubt.
Swami: You can only have doubt if you have an experience of the same thing, an impression of the same thing, or a perception of the same thing. If you’ve never seen a car moving and somebody tells you about a car moving, then you’ll not have doubt. But if you saw the car was stationery and somebody told you it was moving, then you’ll have doubt. On the spiritual journey doubt is set by the mind. It’s one of the things about the mind that can stop your journey. It’s one of the modifications of the mind. Doubt. And once you set doubt, you’ve set yourself into a problem because you will find it very difficult to find room for reason. Doubt will set you in a corner where there is no reason.
One of the worst things you can do is doubt anything that your elders, spiritual masters, gurus, whatever you call them – anything they say you should not doubt as they’ve been through a series of experiences and know what they’re talking about. Once you have doubt, you have an obstacle and, because of that doubt, you’ll keep going back to the one statement that created the doubt. It’s like carrying something in your mind, and when you carry something in your mind, nothing else can fill that space. For example, all of you today, especially those that are fasting saltless for Saturday’s prayer, the whole day you’re thinking about salt. That is the truth. So nothing else could go in the mind but that thought. Doubt works like that. Once it occupies the mind it leaves no room for anything else.
So that is doubt, and it is basically something that comes from being judgemental. And being judgemental is very significant in doubt. Once you create doubt, your journey will not go as smoothly as you want it to go. It is like eating an orange. If you think that peeling the orange is quite an effort, you’ll never eat that orange – unless someone else does it for you. But your mind is occupied with the process of taking a long time. Doubt works like that. It occupies the complete mass of your brain where nothing else matters. But it’s definitely not right … and you miss it. You’ll say, ‘He’s definitely not God-loving,' and when a God-loving person comes along you miss the point. Do not doubt; always reason. Reasoning is better than doubting. If somebody tells you that one and one is three, you’ll doubt that because you have reasoning to tell you that one and one is equal to two. Doubt can cause you to lose everything you have in life on the spiritual journey.
Devotee: Swami, when one experiences a modification of the mind, is it best to push it away, or leave it and wait for it to pass?
Swami: The only reason you have a modification of the mind is because you have an impression and therefore you need the modification. You don’t know that sugar is sweet until you taste it. And when you’ve tasted it, you know it’s sweet even if you don’t taste it again. So, if you clear your mind, you won’t have these modifications of the mind. Pushing them away is no good. They’ll come back. Work them out.
Devotee: Why is it so difficult for us to let go?
Swami: Actually, change is always difficult - any kind of change. Wanting to give up meat is a change. Something has to be found to replace the meat. So we find soya. Soya reminds you of meat because your mind is saying, ‘I can have that because it tastes the same’. So you have it to bluff the mind. But you have not become a vegetarian in the mind, only on the outside. In the mind you are still eating meat. Otherwise, why do you buy chicken-flavoured soya? Why don’t you buy soya beans instead? Because they have no meat flavour. We bluff the mind continuously. It’s sitting quietly, saying, ‘Right, I’ve had my quota of meat for today’. Those soya nuggets taste just like chicken so the mind is satisfied. Very few people like soya beans. They tell you the taste is terrible – no flavour. Modification of the mind is an important aspect of this journey. Patanjali mentions this in the yoga sutra. That is what we lack. As soon as we can modify the mind we can connect with God. But we have not modified the mind yet. We’ve still got these impressions, these perceptions, and as long as we do, in the mind’s eye, we’re not going to change.
It’s eleven o’clock so those who want to leave, feel comfortable to leave. Don’t think I’ll shout at you. Those who remain will remain here till six in the morning.
Devotee: Swami, can Triambagam heal nature?
Swami: It can heal anything! It can even charge a flat battery, said with the right intensity, yet tonight there was no intensity, just a boring process.
Devotee: Does healing energy every vanish?
Swami: Yes it does. All the energy goes to the solar plexus. The energy is stored there as such, and as it dissipates. Chakras, subtle body thus refer chakra back for ease of healing work. Falling asleep in a prayer breaks the continuity of the energy field. Some people sleep, sleep, sleep, and they enjoy the world. Some run, run, run, and experience the world. Others just sit, sit, sit, and experience the world. They are called yogis. It is weird how he who just sits can experience the whole universe. Yogi is just a four-letter word for someone who sees all. Simplicity is spirituality, and spirituality is simplicity.
